1.17.14

I'm bad.  Told myself that I was going to post everyday.  I haven't even wrote in my live, actual journal.  Can't tell you when the last time I did? 

I'm feeling strange these days.  A little anxious, impatient, my mind is going in 50 different directions.  I want things to happen NOW.  I feel restless.  I want to pull up the carpet in our house and get some kind of flooring laid.  But I know I don't have the money right now and need to wait.  And if we pull up the carpet now but wait, it will be an ugly mess I'm sure.  And it's been really cold.  I'm sure the carpet helps keep the rooms a bit warmer. 

I've been crazy busy at work but that's a good thing.  I love being productive at work and having things to do.  I love helping people or figuring a solution to a problem out.  But today I'm having troubles focusing, like I said, mind going in all different directions.

STRENGTH is my word for 2014 which I think I've already posted about that.  So far so good I would say.  I'm not going to totally beat myself up today.  There's definitely room for improvement but it is the 1st month of 2014 so I have time. 

Brought my clothes to workout this week but haven't yet.  Not entirely my fault when the husband wants to go to lunch (how can I refuse?!) and I am hungry.  And when my workout buddy has to run errands.  It is what it is. 

This morning I was running late, didn't feel that great and just ready to crawl back in bed but I thought about my word (STRENGTH) and forced myself to get up.  Then on the way to daycare, I hear Jesse in the backseat in the softest most precious voice say "Thank you Jesus".  It was music to my ears.  I asked him what he said and he repeated himself and then we said our prayer together and my whole attitude shifted.  I learn from that little boy a lot!

Jesse got called into work last night - trip to Cleveland so he probably won't be home until tomorrow morning.  I'm thinking I am going to take the boys to see Nut Job tonight.  I know Jess really wants to see it, not sure about Rylee?

Ila Mae gave me Jesus Calling last Sunday at church.  It's a book with devotions for every day of the year.  I love it.  I just finished today's. 

I want to get things organized.  I want simplicity in my home.  I want to have nothing but beautiful things or useful items.  I have so many plans during the day and then I go home and my motivation doesn't follow.  Whyyyy???

And right now, I have this desire to go shopping on my lunch hour.  I know this is a bad idea but I really want to go.  I haven't been shopping for myself in a while.  Even if I just window shop.  I feel like I need to be creative whether changing up my house or my style but most likely it should be my way of thinking.